Finally I have taken the first step towards the married life..I got engaged on last Sunday. It was an awesome function happened in "J" s place. She was looking very beautiful. I should say thanks to all those who made it a success.
Jesus I Thank you for giving me such a wonderful girl.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Happiest Days Of My Life!!
My marriage will be fixed on this Sunday at my home..I am going through the happiest days of my life..I quite smoking on the day it got confirmed. Anyway her name is 'J'. Yes, yet another J. She happens to be a friend of my sisters.
I am just waiting for the day of marriage. I am eagerly waiting for day we are becoming one. One thing I have decided that, I will love her to the core and I will never make her cry. After all she is mine and I am seeing myself in her.
'J' I am totally in love with you!!!.. I Love You!!!
I am just waiting for the day of marriage. I am eagerly waiting for day we are becoming one. One thing I have decided that, I will love her to the core and I will never make her cry. After all she is mine and I am seeing myself in her.
'J' I am totally in love with you!!!.. I Love You!!!
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Yet another pain ..
It is been 3 months since the last post.. It is not that i was bussy with work and all. I just didn't have anything write down.. Now that I have yet another "happpy" incident to talk about, I decided to write it down..
I ahve seen another girl 2 weeks backs and she was the friend of my sisters. we proposed her and they have invited us to their home on 1st of August. We all impressed with the family and invited them to our place.
They came to our home on last sunday and all were happy aboutit and kind of decided forthe marriage.
But now I feel that they are looking for someone better since I am bloody "Sales Guy" who does not have a "fucking office in Cochin". I understand that is a major default. But I earnrs 40,000/month which is more than enough for me to support a girl/family.
Bloody what is happening for those who got the cost of office on their head..I ahve seenmany people loosing their fucking job in a days time.. eventhough I do not have an office here in Cochin I am kinda safe and I can move to a better job from here..
Thet family was good and I want this to happen. I really do not know what lies ahead.
If my intution is true, this marriage will just not happen..
And bloody I will have to start the hunting front the scratch.
"Cheers"
I ahve seen another girl 2 weeks backs and she was the friend of my sisters. we proposed her and they have invited us to their home on 1st of August. We all impressed with the family and invited them to our place.
They came to our home on last sunday and all were happy aboutit and kind of decided forthe marriage.
But now I feel that they are looking for someone better since I am bloody "Sales Guy" who does not have a "fucking office in Cochin". I understand that is a major default. But I earnrs 40,000/month which is more than enough for me to support a girl/family.
Bloody what is happening for those who got the cost of office on their head..I ahve seenmany people loosing their fucking job in a days time.. eventhough I do not have an office here in Cochin I am kinda safe and I can move to a better job from here..
Thet family was good and I want this to happen. I really do not know what lies ahead.
If my intution is true, this marriage will just not happen..
And bloody I will have to start the hunting front the scratch.
"Cheers"
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Life. What is that?
Life!!
I always wonder what it has been offering me so far.. been blessed with a loving parents & sisters. the necessary luxuries of life.. education.. what else you need form life?
By the time you realize what is life and what do you what from it, it may be too late.. That what happening to me..
I have been wandering around for a little drop of love.. the bruised person.. Still I remember the walk with Joby through Jalahalli.. When he said his girlfriend totally understands him as a person, I got wounded.. "ഒരു വാഴ്ള് നിന്റെ ഹൃദയത്തില് കൂടി കടന്നു പോകും " എന്ന് ബൈബിളില് പറഞ്ഞത് പോലെ. ഹൃദയം നുറുങ്ങുന്ന വേദന. എന്നെ സ്നേഹിക്കാന് മാത്രം ആരുമില്ല.ആര്ക്കും വേണ്ട. പാഴ് ജന്മം. ആ യാഥാര്ഥ്യം മനസിലാക്കുമ്പോലുള്ള ശൂന്യത. നിറഞ്ഞ കണ്ണുകള്.തകര്ന്ന ഹൃദയം. കരള് പിളര്ക്കുന്ന കഠോര വേദന.
yesterday my sisters were talking about one of their old friend, whom they think we can propose for a marriage..
As a habit, I was checking the girl's name in Google.. She got married a week back.. That too a love marriage.. I am became "happy" again..
Why is it happening to me only.. bloody, I am the one who is been cursed. The one who lost everything. May be even this is the so called life.. Who knows.. Whenever I see a love marriage couple, I am green with jealous. I just can't accept that they been in love and got married where I have not been loved throughout my life. I stopped attending marriage ceremonies.
I always wonder what it has been offering me so far.. been blessed with a loving parents & sisters. the necessary luxuries of life.. education.. what else you need form life?
By the time you realize what is life and what do you what from it, it may be too late.. That what happening to me..
I have been wandering around for a little drop of love.. the bruised person.. Still I remember the walk with Joby through Jalahalli.. When he said his girlfriend totally understands him as a person, I got wounded.. "ഒരു വാഴ്ള് നിന്റെ ഹൃദയത്തില് കൂടി കടന്നു പോകും " എന്ന് ബൈബിളില് പറഞ്ഞത് പോലെ. ഹൃദയം നുറുങ്ങുന്ന വേദന. എന്നെ സ്നേഹിക്കാന് മാത്രം ആരുമില്ല.ആര്ക്കും വേണ്ട. പാഴ് ജന്മം. ആ യാഥാര്ഥ്യം മനസിലാക്കുമ്പോലുള്ള ശൂന്യത. നിറഞ്ഞ കണ്ണുകള്.തകര്ന്ന ഹൃദയം. കരള് പിളര്ക്കുന്ന കഠോര വേദന.
yesterday my sisters were talking about one of their old friend, whom they think we can propose for a marriage..
As a habit, I was checking the girl's name in Google.. She got married a week back.. That too a love marriage.. I am became "happy" again..
Why is it happening to me only.. bloody, I am the one who is been cursed. The one who lost everything. May be even this is the so called life.. Who knows.. Whenever I see a love marriage couple, I am green with jealous. I just can't accept that they been in love and got married where I have not been loved throughout my life. I stopped attending marriage ceremonies.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Yes - I am back..
It is been couple of weeks from the last post.. been little bussy with travelling across Kerala. Now i am in the train on the way back from Mumbai after the national sales conference. The sales meet has not been different from anyother sales meet you can expect - Gyan & Daru.. What else you can expect from a sales meet?
Mumbai is a city wich offers opportunity for the people from all the walks of life. Be it a CEO or a begger in the street. City with lot of opportunities and dreams. Everytime I visit Mumbai, it offers a different view towards life.Our life is not complete, without experiecing the Mumbai life. The work ethics of the Mumbaikars should always been appreciated. Only thing I am bit uncomfirtable with Mumbai - Long hours of travel in the train. I have seen people travelling 5 hours daily just to be to the work and to the home. Even then, I beleive they enjoy it .
I am carrying couple of books and want to finish before i reach Cochin tomorrow evening.
Mumbai is a city wich offers opportunity for the people from all the walks of life. Be it a CEO or a begger in the street. City with lot of opportunities and dreams. Everytime I visit Mumbai, it offers a different view towards life.Our life is not complete, without experiecing the Mumbai life. The work ethics of the Mumbaikars should always been appreciated. Only thing I am bit uncomfirtable with Mumbai - Long hours of travel in the train. I have seen people travelling 5 hours daily just to be to the work and to the home. Even then, I beleive they enjoy it .
I am carrying couple of books and want to finish before i reach Cochin tomorrow evening.
Saturday, March 27, 2010
I am deserted..
I have been pushed to the limits. I am deserted and in pain.
I am not able to hear the voice of the so called "xaviour".
Life is at a stake. The girl whom i loved the most is leading a wonderfull life without me in the picture. She is been saved and blessed.I been left for drowning.
Distance to the grave is not too far. It is justa walkable distance. Anytime I can visit there. I may not be back for the next post :)
I am not able to hear the voice of the so called "xaviour".
Life is at a stake. The girl whom i loved the most is leading a wonderfull life without me in the picture. She is been saved and blessed.I been left for drowning.
Distance to the grave is not too far. It is justa walkable distance. Anytime I can visit there. I may not be back for the next post :)
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